ummmmm, wow....
i just finished reading all 30 pages of this "debate"...(including orisis(i think that's the s/n) entire first post)
in all honesty, the best reading i've done in awhile.
i want to thank dbfan, acid and squeak for the comedic relief. i had more then a few good laughs whilest asborbing this novel.
and i've come to the conclusion that while i believe in a higher power, i don't know who or what it is. does that make sense? anyway, to explain a little (after orsisis and frranddffurter(sorry //content.invisioncic.com/y282845/emoticons/wacky.gif.cf4a48f9e6dfe9504ffd2c946fd2f340.gif//content.invisioncic.com/y282845/emoticons/banghead.gif.8606515f668c74f6de0281deb475b6fd.gif ) posts, i don't have to worry about the longest one here.) better...
i used to think evolution was it. i mean, my burmese python has stubs of what used to be legs by it's anus (i forget their technical name) that a person can see. as a matter of fact, they help to determine the *** of the snake (offtopic, i know)..
anyway..i then grew to believe that there is a God and He created evolution just to test our faith. without quoting specific passages ( i couldn't if i wanted to) the bible makes references to God testing and trying our belief. while at the same time, how could this God let the churches ruin what He's strived so hard to achieve?
long story short, churches are a business, most generally. i don't like them and i won't go. there have been two instances in which i found church to be what the bible said it should. the salvation army and a all-black church in the town i grew up in. the SA didn't talk down about other denominations, but instead focused on believing in Jesus and helping the community regardless of opinion. as a side note, i learned to play the trumpet and piano(somewhat) there. the black church was just full of energy and focused wholely on the good things of bieng a christian.
(not so short,eh?) inthe end, i'm at a crossroads. i've been baptized and "born again" but i don't hold a lot of faith in the churches purpose of doing it. (more for show then go, so to speak) maybe one day i will.
i'm not afraid of death. it comes to all of us. i'm not afraid of my afterlife,if there is such a thing. i've come to live my life as if today is my last day and i have no regrets for the things i've done nor the decisions i've made. i will have none the day i die.
am i saved? i dunno, but i think in the back of my mind there is some belief. i know there is doubt, but that doubt extends to both sides. one day, i will have my answers. when that day gets here, i'll know.
btw, frrankandfurter(ppl really need easy s/n's..like mine //content.invisioncic.com/y282845/emoticons/ready2go.gif.6557fa3d88b9eaca9c7b8efb9cbd02ed.gif )...i want to thank you for handling yourself that way you have. you've had a few opportunities to get real rash for good reason, but you didn't. i applaud that.
and that is all....
except
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee //content.invisioncic.com/y282845/emoticons/peace.gif.2db28b618ed8d1964ebbe2f5021d2c39.gif