Yes, you probably would, because your a quitter.. You have no idea how many times I have been to that point. Or the things I have done to myself, or the places that I have been locked up in. But when you keep seeing the faces of your 3 kids, 3yo girl, 7yo girl, 9 yo boy.. its not that easy to do. I am there best friend as well as they are mine.. I'm disabled and they are home schooled, we are together alot, I need them in my life, they keep me going. They need me, and they need me to be mentally sound..Those pills allow for me to have that chance, and for them to have the kind of father they deserve. I take it very offensive when people talk bad about modern medications like its all in my head and I can make it go away and everything be fine if I was just a strong minded person. Well I was a strong minded person once..Then I went through some very hard times and dealt with some very bad things and with all of that a person can change and develop problems. Plus when you grow up being Bipolar in a family of 10 kids (8 boys 2 girls) and you seem to be the only one with a problem, and this is before "Bipolar Disorder" was very well known, plus because your family is so huge your parents cant afford to take you to the DR. and you dont know what is wrong with you or why you feel the way you do or why you do things you hate doing, its hard...I did not chose to be mentally ill. I did not choose the path of life that I was shoved down. To say "you" dont need pills is a accurate statement...for you, Just because you do fine without it does not mean that everyone else does.. Its not like our minds work exactly the same and our situations are exactly the same and you can judge me by you experiences. If my brain chooses to not make a certain chemical such as serotonin, its not my fault. Thats like saying to a baby born with down syndrome, "You dont need to have Down syndrome, its all in your head, Dont take medications or listen to professionals about how to deal with you to help you develop more normally , just think happy thoughts and be strong mentally and you will be perfect just like me".. "Say what? You have Cancer? Oh you dont need treatment, Pills and radiation and modern medical science is just for week people"...Oh, and then because we are not perfect or feel as good as you we should just go kill ourself's in your opinion...if life is going to be hard and not just be a walk in the park, if im going to have to deal with problems & actually work at things then I will just give up and die...take my own life.. Well I dont have that outlook on life anymore. I'm going to fight. I'm going to take any **** pill I want to make me feel like living another day or to help me feel more normal like perfect people such as yourselves. Yeah, I got issues...just be glad you dont have to deal with 'em. By the way, most of you guys are talking about misusing and abusing drugs. I am not. Everything I take is prescribed to me to work best for my situations.
