So i saw this guy i used to terrorize in highschool...

[Eugenics 5,000+ posts]

I went on that date with the girl, and today we ended up going to see Jackass Two (which by the way was effing hilarious). While i was at the front getting a 'beef frank' and 'refreshments' i saw him.

I see him everyonce in a while at the gas station, but never talk to him. Hardly anyone from highschool or anything ever recognizes me, which is good because 9 out of 10 of them i wouldn't associate with if they payed me.

Anyway he asked me if he knew me, and i said yes james you do. He was playing it cool being nice (a really nice kid). I couldn't hold it in anymore and i told him how ****ing sorry i was for all the mean things i said and did to him during school (we went to the same schools until i dropped out). I mean, i was brutal. We rode on the same bus until we could drive and it didn't stop there.

I dont know why i did it, i had no friends myself until highschool then i was mr. fucking cool for whatever reason. I had a really messed up childhood, i can honestly say i was a bad person growing up. But thats not really a good excuse. This kid never got a break, he was kind of wierd, super skinny and couldn't really relate to anything. He was also adopted and kind of poor so he never had the cool clothes either. We all know how school was. We all know how mean kids can be... i was a very mean kid. I could go into detail about all the things i said and did but honestly i dont want to think about that at all i already feel like a piece of shit, a huge piece of shit.

I grew up really poor, then suddenly my parents we're millionares, it was all new to me and my highschool was nothing but a status competition... and i dont lose at anything... so i just held that against him as well... he was always nice to me though, always wanted to be my friend. Couple that with the fact that in highschool i had gotten into boxing was nothing but lean muscle and was known in the fighting scene, so i would intimidate him too. I have never been so mean to anyone in my life. I didn't really change till shit happened and i lost a few friends then dropped out and decided to get my life straight...

Anyway, i told him how sorry i was. And i told him how i felt so bad for being so mean in highschool, and just through out the guys life in general. and i really meant it. I dont know how many times i used the word sorry. He asked me how i was doing and i told him how things were going, move alot, way ahead in school, got a good business backround, make good money, have a great life, with a great chick... so i turned the table and asked him about his life.

His life is that fucking theater. He works 40 hours a week there, does nothing but. He was one of the smart kids too. I told him he should goto school and he said he can't, this is the only thing he can do. He's not good enough for the rest he said. I mentioned to him that he could do anything he put his mind too, he didn't have to goto school but he should do something with his life, find something he loves etc. etc. Didn't phase him one bit. I told him all that mattered is that he was happy, he said he was happy doing that but with a face that said he had lied about that a thousand times. The whole reason he will never amount to anything is because me and everyone else we're complete pieces of shit too him, never even gave him a chance never gave him a break. And honestly, i've felt like shit all day, even in the movie it was in the back of my head and its been in the back of my head. The funny thing is that i've been thinking about it alot latley, even when i haven't been seeing him around. I had been wanting to walk up to him and say sorry so bad. I'm glad i finally did it but what does it matter? its just words. i can never take back what i did to him

i really am truly sorry, i can't get this out of my head. i pretty much ruined someones life. and that person did nothing but be kind to me. of course now im a polar oposite to what i used to be like. i've found peace, im kind, im driven, i guinely care about people as a whole, i can't go by a homeless person without emtying my pockets. but none of it really matters. I'm going to find some way to make it up to the guy. i just dont know how, when i get back next year for however long im here i'll get him a job and then work on his confidence from there. if i set him up with a good paying job working for me i can groom him to be sucessful. so i guess now i have to focus on this. i know where he'll be. and i can find just about anyone with the law office at my fingertips.

i guess if this is a lesson at all, its a lesson that i hope everyone who is still in school thinks about. and just in general. care about the people around you. dont be a prick if you dont have to be. its not like on here where we can all mess around or hate eachother or whatever and at the end of the day it dosen't matter. its serious. if theres anything i could take back in my whole life... this is probably it, because its selfless, everything i did to myself was mine to own. but this was someone else who had no choice in the matter.

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[DBfan187 5,000+ posts]

//content.invisioncic.com/y282845/emoticons/frown.gif.a3531fa0534503350665a1e957861287.gif you went emo on us all.

 

[Megalomaniac 5,000+ posts]

 

[mattf 5,000+ posts]

I guess that its good that you realized what you did, even though like you said, there's nothing you can do to change what happened.

What did he have to say when you apologized?

 

[HeatSeeker 10+ year member]

wow im the opposite, people were pieces of shit to me before, now im a cold son of a ***** who takes advantage of everyone i used to hate's new softness for life....evil ftw

 

[zachzchw 5,000+ posts]

I kept waiting for the punch line reading that......

Its good that you want to help him out, but its not your fault hes screwed up. Lots of people had it rough in school, and they made it okay. Its up to him to decide if he wants to live a worthwhile life, or keep feeling sorry for himself.

Try to help him, but know that it will only work if he wants to be helped.

 

[Eugenics 5,000+ posts]

//content.invisioncic.com/y282845/emoticons/frown.gif.a3531fa0534503350665a1e957861287.gif you went emo on us all.

had to get it off my chest. been thinking about it all day. i'll make up for it by being my iritable internet self. dont worry

 

[faulkton 5,000+ posts]

i kid i went to highschool with.. rode the bus with.. picked on with everyone else.. shot himself in the bathroom one day at school.. so i quit being mean for no reason after that... except on the interweb..you emo SOB.

 

[Eugenics 5,000+ posts]

i offered that, but it was a no go. people dont know a good hummer when they see one.

I guess that its good that you realized what you did, even though like you said, there's nothing you can do to change what happened.
What did he have to say when you apologized?

he kinda brushed it off, dont blame him. i wouldn't want to see me either. i mean he was nice about it, but you could tell he was nervious and anxious.

 

[Eugenics 5,000+ posts]

i kid i went to highschool with.. rode the bus with.. picked on with everyone else.. shot himself in the bathroom one day at school.. so i quit being mean for no reason after that... except on the interweb..you emo SOB.

headbutt a bullet buttercup.

 

[HeatSeeker 10+ year member]

being mean for no reason ftl...being mean for revenge however = ftw, nothing like ****ing the guy you hate's girl from behind while being videotaped, and leaving it at his door the next morning...

 

[faulkton 5,000+ posts]

you should have pants him and then mocked his shitty life..

you missed a good chance for total pwnage.

im a little disapointed.

 

[Eugenics 5,000+ posts]

i've got really bad gas right now.

 

[saywhat? 5,000+ posts]

then dropped out and decided to get my life straight...

cuz that makes a ton of sense?

 

[Eugenics 5,000+ posts]

you should have pants him and then mocked his shitty life..
you missed a good chance for total pwnage.

im a little disapointed.

im pretty sure he's the type of guy that still wears the jeans with an alastic band so it wouldn't have been hard.