sorry to hear about this bro... I cant imagine what you are going through.. But the fact is that making rash decisions out of anger is only going to make your life worse. I am not a religious person but what CAT MAN is saying is thee truth. killing yourself will get you no where. wouldnt your son want you to live on to remember him??? What about your wife and the rest of your family?? Dont take the easy way out. Man up and deal with the pain, because if you kill yourself think about what that will do to the others around you?? The pain may be to much to handle right now but you need to keep a level head and just take some time to calm down.