Nothing tears me apart more than the "meaning" of things or the "reasons" of life...the causality of various actions.
I want to understand, I want to know as much as possible, I seek out every opportunity to fill in the edges of the map.....and yet I don't even know that the map, as it were, is real. I have been firmly rooted in science since adolescence and yet I question it every day. More than anything, I wish to understand everything....and yet it is totally impossible.
The sad reality that bothers me everyday is that I will almost assuredly die without having any significant questions answered.