To make it short. I had to be rushed to the hospital for my blood pressure being high due to my depression for the first time in 19 years. I'm sick of this shit... it's been going on since I was 10... I get put down by people in grade school, I get put down by family members, I constantly talk to myself, I don't like being around people anymore... I just do what I have to do daily then come home and do nothing then my dad died... then my brother tried to kill me... then he goes to jail 3 years ago then I get money taken from my bank account from family members, I think about death all the time... the list goes on... I put up with bullshit all the time but this is the first time I almost died from this.