ever just feel like not going on anymore.....

[GohillaAudio]

have you guys ever had a time in your life when you just feel like you cant go on anymore? well im at that point right now.....last week coming home from work my ex was in my driveway when i pulled in, my first though was "oh crap....this is gonna be some drama" but when she got out of the car the look in her eyes was cold and unforgettable....she started crying the moment we made eye contact, and i asked her what was wrong, and where was hannah (my daughter)

at the sound of her name she just started bawling, then she gave me the worst news of my life....the night before she went to check on hannah when she was sleeping, and she said that she peeked in and something didnt look right, so she was going to wake her up to make sure she was alright, she said her name a few times and she didnt respond, so she went to pick her up, and she was very cold to the touch,and completely limp, she was breathing, but struggling she ran into the front room and called 911, hannah had passed by the time they got there, she had heart failure

how does a 2 year old have random heart failure!?!?!

my kids were my everything, my son is 10 months old and you can tell he knows somethings wrong...its so sad

im sorry for the rant guys.... i just had to vent.....i have not left the bed for almost a week, i think i might have gotten fired fired from my job.....just dont feel like im going to make it

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[Fusion_FREAK 10+ year member]

**** man, sorry. I couldn't imagine what it would be like losing a child. Random heart failure is very weird, but maybe you or the mother's family has a history of heart problems.

I know how you feel though. I never do anything, and haven't left the house in 2 weeks besides for work. I feel down and sooooooooooo bored.

 

[97gp 5,000+ posts]

Wow thats deep, I don't even know what to say.

 

[T9X 10+ year member]

I'm so sorry to hear that man, I can't imagine what you've gotta be dealing with right now.

I personally don't have any kids but a couple of my best friends do and their kids are almost like my own (hell I see the kids more than their parents do sometimes).

I've been not wanting to go on for a solid 4 monthes now but I somehow manage to stay strong and make it through one day at a time.

That's all it is anymore, one day at a time...

 

[wu501 10+ year member]

sorry to hear about this...life is crazy sometimes...but you can pull through and grow stronger. Ity just takes time //content.invisioncic.com/y282845/emoticons/frown.gif.a3531fa0534503350665a1e957861287.gif

 

[GohillaAudio]

my side of the family has a history or heart problems, but nothing like this.....

 

[GearGuy2001 10+ year member]

Hey that really sucks but Im sure Hannah wouldnt want you to end your life because of this, you need to keep going no matter how tough it is, always remember that things will get better.

 

[bones22 5,000+ posts]

very sorry to hear this.

ive had a lot of the feelings it sounds like you are having because of military BS. i honestly feel for you both.

if your job fires you over it there is legal action you can take. not that it would make you feel any better though.

if they fire you fvck them

 

[ThatChevyGuy 5,000+ posts]

The best ones go early man.

best wishes.

 

[EGGmane 10+ year member]

Hey that really sucks but Im sure Hannah wouldnt want you to end your life because of this, you need to keep going no matter how tough it is, always remember that things will get better.

I agree with this. You have to go on FOR her. I can't imagine your pain, so I won't say I understand but I am truly sorry for your loss.

 

[bigbangtheory 5,000+ posts]

Jesus Christ dude....................I am so sorrry for you and yours. I honestly don't know what to say as I have never been in that situation and hope I never am. I have a 11 month old daughter myself and I couldn't even imagine. //content.invisioncic.com/y282845/emoticons/frown.gif.a3531fa0534503350665a1e957861287.gif

All I can say is you can't stop time. Hopefully in time the wounds will heal although I would imagine it will be hard. Just remember, you have a son to take care of and be there for. So don't give up everything. You have to move on for him and yourself.

Good luck and if you ever need to talk, let me know.

I also feel like a real douche about bagging on your wall now.

 

[silvercookie 5,000+ posts]

**** man,

sorry to hear.

 

[dcole18 5,000+ posts]

im real sorry to hear this man, i had a 8 year old cousin die earlier this year due to heart failure (had never had any prior medical problems either) so this really hits home with me

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[GohillaAudio]

im gonna go lie down....thanks for all the kind words guys

 

[Tehgregzor 10+ year member]

Wow man...i thought i had it bad, i just didn't have internet for like 3 days. I get back online after buying a nic card, and your thread is the first i read. Really makes me appreciate the things i do have in my life.

I'm sorry for your loss my friend.