Can you not see how selfish that sounds? All of your posts have some sort of selfish perspective, you didn't choose to be born, you didn't choose to be loved or cared about, but how does that make a difference? It doesn't change that fact that others do and it's your selfish line of thought that is leading to your suicidal thoughts which ARE selfish.
I don't know what you're going through and it might be really tough but I can guarantee you that there are a lot of people out there struggling worse than you, going through more heartache than you and they aren't giving up. You still have opportunities to live a great life and accomplish a lot of great things but the second you end it all you throw away all your opportunites. I bet a lot of people in this world would love to be in your position, no matter how tough.