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[Dirtrider4eva 10+ year member]

i post this here to remain decently anonymous. pretty comfortable to sit behind a screen name and have an identity we can all pretend to impose. personally today i feel like crap. I feel as if i do not know where im going and stuck in place. one thing i've noticed as time goes by more and more friend disappear. Frankly however, it doesnt bother me, i lost the desire to hang with most of them. I grow tired of their stupidity in most cases. is this just me? having a harder time tolerating people.

i feel weak mentally at night. During the day im a stronger person, but as night comes i think about things too much, i feel sad, and down on myself for no reason. I feel alone even though there's people around me.. it sucks. i know everyone feels bad once in a while, but this is pretty often.. I've thought of depression being the issue, but its only during the night. never another time. Never suicidal, never pain inflicting, just sad. im not posting this to get trolled, to get bashed, but to speak my mind without being thought as different by people in my life..

Anyone else like this?

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[garychoffmann 10+ year member]

Seriously homey, seeking help from a dr is embarrassing at first. It's in your best interest to get balanced out. Smart people recognize the problem and try and get it fixed. Your feelings are legit, find the cause, get balance.

 

[Dirtrider4eva 10+ year member]

i think its change honestly.. the last year has been pretty rough. working 2 jobs on top of being a full time student in college, parents just got a divorce and the "super hero father" we all looked up to growing up quickly became a fad as i found out what he truly was like all toke a toll on me. idk. just *****. I dont think i could do it though. I have to be tough around my friends and family. I'm always the rock. they come to me asking for advice and support; for me to do something like that would be beyond me.

 

[Slo_Ride 5,000+ posts]

always buy enough coke to make it through the night.

 

[garychoffmann 10+ year member]

Beyond you how? Too strong to do what you should? Too weak to take matters into your own hands?

 

[des343 10+ year member]

i post this here to remain decently anonymous. pretty comfortable to sit behind a screen name and have an identity we can all pretend to impose. personally today i feel like crap. I feel as if i do not know where im going and stuck in place. one thing i've noticed as time goes by more and more friend disappear. Frankly however, it doesnt bother me, i lost the desire to hang with most of them. I grow tired of their stupidity in most cases. is this just me? having a harder time tolerating people.
i feel weak mentally at night. During the day im a stronger person, but as night comes i think about things too much, i feel sad, and down on myself for no reason. I feel alone even though there's people around me.. it sucks. i know everyone feels bad once in a while, but this is pretty often.. I've thought of depression being the issue, but its only during the night. never another time. Never suicidal, never pain inflicting, just sad. im not posting this to get trolled, to get bashed, but to speak my mind without being thought as different by people in my life..

Anyone else like this?

Yes, then I roll a fat blunt and smoke it and say * uck it. I can't stand the general population bunch of arrogant as holes. And life has not been so kind thus far in life but just keep moving and adapting to the situation is all you can do is roll with it

 

[bgowdy 5,000+ posts]

i post this here to remain decently anonymous. pretty comfortable to sit behind a screen name and have an identity we can all pretend to impose. personally today i feel like crap. I feel as if i do not know where im going and stuck in place. one thing i've noticed as time goes by more and more friend disappear. Frankly however, it doesnt bother me, i lost the desire to hang with most of them. I grow tired of their stupidity in most cases. is this just me? having a harder time tolerating people.
i feel weak mentally at night. During the day im a stronger person, but as night comes i think about things too much, i feel sad, and down on myself for no reason. I feel alone even though there's people around me.. it sucks. i know everyone feels bad once in a while, but this is pretty often.. I've thought of depression being the issue, but its only during the night. never another time. Never suicidal, never pain inflicting, just sad. im not posting this to get trolled, to get bashed, but to speak my mind without being thought as different by people in my life..

Anyone else like this?

everyone has these days/nights.... When i have days like that, my modo is ""Tell hell with everything and go fishing""... nothing more relaxing then to go fishing. just my .2

 

[Slo_Ride 5,000+ posts]

everyone has these days/nights.... When i have days like that, my modo is ""Tell hell with everything and go fishing""... nothing more relaxing then to go fishing. just my .2

cant fish its rained so much

 

[bgowdy 5,000+ posts]

cant fish its rained so much

f*ck that ill fish in the rain. ive fished while storming and actually caught a bunch

 

[Slo_Ride 5,000+ posts]

f*ck that ill fish in the rain. ive fished while storming and actually caught a bunch

the rivers are flooding fields even the creeks are washing away roads. of the 31 days in june it rained 28. its still raining.

 

[Dirtrider4eva 10+ year member]

i usually try to just go to sleep.

 

[bgowdy 5,000+ posts]

the rivers are flooding fields even the creeks are washing away roads. of the 31 days in june it rained 28. its still raining.

Thats the best time to fish. Especially for catfish. Think about all the grass thats flood is going to make fish more active. Here it was flooded into the parking lot. Me and wife were fishing from the side of a main road and throwing into the parking lot and picnic area and were catching catfish like they were bluegill. You should try it lol

 

[bbeljefe]

What is it about nights that seems to be bothersome for you?

The answer isn't in what's happening in your life now... think back in time as far as you can. You can't fix the problem until you find the cause, and to help with that search, look up Nathaniel Branden, Daniel Mackler, Alice Miller and there is also a very good book by Dr. Gabor Mate called "In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts".

I recommend starting there.

 

[Slo_Ride 5,000+ posts]

god ronda rousey is so smexy

 

[Dirtrider4eva 10+ year member]

I'm not suicidal. At nights I just think about my life. I feel like I have no real friends.. seems like I rsrely get hittup to hang and Its only for me to do something for someone. I guess my issue is lack of having friends.

 

[jdawg90 10+ year member]

I'm not suicidal. At nights I just think about my life. I feel like I have no real friends.. seems like I rsrely get hittup to hang and Its only for me to do something for someone. I guess my issue is lack of having friends.

I used to be like that too about friends. I'd overthink things in general at night (especially when I smoked a lot of weed). If someone wants to hang out, cool, if not I'm just as happy playing black ops or browsing the internet. Idk for me the issue was I was too worried about what other people were doing or what I thought I was supposed to be doing (back in high school) rather than what I wanted to do.

I don't have any real friends either. My best friend stabbed me in the back hard about a year ago and since then I've had friends come and go but no real friends. Aside from wanting to seriously injure my former best friend, I don't really give a fuck about friends. TBH I prefer doing my own thing rather than hanging out with people.

But yeah, try cutting back on the weed dude.

 

[Slo_Ride 5,000+ posts]

I'm not suicidal. At nights I just think about my life. I feel like I have no real friends.. seems like I rsrely get hittup to hang and Its only for me to do something for someone. I guess my issue is lack of having friends.

this is your fault. needing others to justify your life. i hate everyone. but i do so equally.

 

[michaellane 5,000+ posts]

Sometimes it is hard always having everyone rely on you. Also could be a lack of sleep and needing somethi g new to occupy your mind at night. Have you gained any weight recently? Try working out a little. Will be rough at first but not for long. Please feel free to pm me. I am in the middle of stuff right now and cannot give you 100% of my attention. Please shoot me a message my man

 

[SethPhillips 5,000+ posts]

man up and quit being a little bitcch

 

[OldManBass]

Serious answer, talk to your Dr. That's real talk.

And pray, I will pray for you as well. May the peace of the Lord be with you.