You'll be alright bro. I dont know if you go to church or if you read the Bible or have ever heard the gospel, but I promise you, if you start reading the Bible, and believe in God and His Word your life will change man. Mine did. In the Bible, God tells us that He loves us just as much as He loved His Son, Jesus Christ. I know this world is harsh at times and life seems so unpromising, but the only thing we can find comfort in is knowing our Lord, Jesus Christ. Pm me if you want to talk man. It seems like you are going through some crap right now, and I know it sucks, I have been through quite a bit in my life. If you give me your name and stuff I can pray for you bro.