said my prayers for you man, but also thing about this, this may be a test from god to get you to believe, if he see's a man who did not believe before and is now willing to trust in god and his miracles and make a believer out of you..it will go much better with the man up stairs..if you do decide he is a prayer i read everyday and sometimes more then once a day on those really bad days..
Father God,
by Your grace I come to You with all that I am
and all that I ever hope to be.
I am Your child born of Your love.
Jesus brought me into Your presence.
You alone satisfy my soul.
You in me and I in You;
this is the path of healing for my soul.
By Your grace I come into Your presence
with simple, trusting assurance, certain
of Your love for me. In Your presence all
fear and insecurity melt away and deep hurts
become healing memories. In Your presence
I am strengthened and filled with hope. Father
in heaven, I breathe the breath of heaven
deep inside my spirit. Your heaven flows
through me. May the light of Your glory be
present with me throughout this day.
I love You Father.