elementxero
10+ year member
Not an 06'er.
I'm left intermittently dismissive and nihilistic and existential and spiritual by this feeling.
Right now, I'm thinking about all the things I don't say or do in my life, despite how short life is...
I'm thinking about the fact that someday I won't be able to do those things any more, that it will be too late to go back and be who I was, from the deepest core, without fear or apology...
I'm thinking about the fact that as I grow as a human being, I've lived and died a hundred times. I've been a hundred different people.
I'm thinking, lovingly, about the fact that each time I've died, for the last few months, I've been drunk and warm and inspired on the last night of my life.
Right now, I'm thinking about all the things I don't say or do in my life, despite how short life is...
I'm thinking about the fact that someday I won't be able to do those things any more, that it will be too late to go back and be who I was, from the deepest core, without fear or apology...
I'm thinking about the fact that as I grow as a human being, I've lived and died a hundred times. I've been a hundred different people.
I'm thinking, lovingly, about the fact that each time I've died, for the last few months, I've been drunk and warm and inspired on the last night of my life.
