There really isn't a representation of the totality of God in any deity that you've ever known, as this is impossible due to physics limitations of this dimension. Everything about God is within oneself and not from outside, such as not from the physical world. God is deep in everyone's mind, but few want to go treading through the darkness, as it's the road less traveled. Most people want to just belong to a club like a tribal group to make themselves feel better, and they don't actually serve, they just make themselves feel comfortable, like how most churches and religions have almost nothing to do with the real world anymore, and that's because not much God is being worshipped, so no new creation actually happens.
If it's always black when you close your eyes and it's always black or dark when you sleep, then you are not enlightened, IMO.