Almost everyone in this thread is glad they aren't you. We feel bad for you dude. You've clearly made some horrible life decisions and you have the mind of a scum bag. I pray that you see the light in actually caring about people, including yourself. That's the sad truth about most people like you, the people full of hate, avoid real conversations, shallow people; you hate yourself and feel worthless inside. So, instead of changing, you project your internal ugliness outwards, just like many in the political realm are doing.
I know you're going to respond like a child, but I genuinely wish you the best and I hope you have a realization moment where you realize that you don't actually like yourself. Then, you can start changing yourself internally to be able to tolerate yourself internally, emotionally, so you don't go out into real life and the internet and spewing your own toxic self-projection.
My life is completely ruined by chronic disease; I will never have a normal life or be able to fully support myself. I don't use that as an excuse to not be responsible for my actions. What do you want to be man? You should really ask yourself that. It's never too late to be a person you actually want to be; there's always room to change. There's no way you feel good about wanting 90% of the population dead. You're in a cult, and, unfortunately, you don't even realize it.
If we go back to 1930's Germany, you would be the type of German cuck who would round up their own neighbors, thinking they were doing good for the world, because they are so lost inside and can't create a life or a ideal of their own. That's what you are, whether you realize it or not.