I hear you guys. Some of you are dealing with a lot more than I am, but I have been dealing with serious bouts of depression since I was a junior in HS. It's usually a week on week off type of thing.
I'm going to school and kind of hating it. I keep switching majors and as soon as I think I want to be set on something, I find out I hate it. I love History though so I think I might go with that, but I don't want to be a History teacher because teachers get paid ****. I left home and miss my family and my dog so much. My grandma is pretty much broke after spending all her money on mold damage in her home and missed something on her taxes, plus her health is deteriorating. So I am running out of money too. Plus, my friends are starting to **** me off.
Thankfully, my guns/shooting is one thing that keeps me happy and car audio stuff. But, like I said I'm low on funds and those hobbies cost $$$. I don't want to move home either because I was less happy there and most of my old friends are gone.
I just turned 21 and went to the bars once, the rest of the week I didn't feel like partying or drinking at all. Lately, I have started eating healthier, going to bed earlier and working out more to try and make me feel better, but school keeps me so busy it's hard to get back into my fitness regiment.
Keep your heads up. Depression is just a phase. I'll crack a beer for all of you.