ok so basically i'm gona ****en tell u how it is, cause i'm sick of feeling this way and not being able to tell you. I have no ****en clue if you still have any feelings for me at all. AND it's driving me nuts. The weekend i spent w/you was the best weekend ever. i had tears in my eyes when i had to leave you, but didn't want u to see, i ****en got shivers, all weekend long i was trying to read what u were thinking but it wasn't working. u are so hard to read. **** it. and it sucks ***. that week afterwords made me feel like i was used. couple seconds to call wouldn't have killed u... but still .. i hate being used... i ****en hate it. i'm not just a ****en piece to be passed around a ****en table god **** it. i realize that i hurt you badly when we broke up and that was a shit long time ago and i've grown up. As scary as it is, you were my first true love. I was actually scared. Because i actually love you and it was scary cause it's wasn't just the love ya shit it was the holy ****. And ever since that you've always had a piece of my heart. I no right now u might just be thinking that i'm overreacting or sumthing but i've been feeling this way since school ****en ended and i thought we were becomming closer. i no u might be thinking that if we ever did become anything that you would be afraid of me meeting other guys at uwm. ya i prolly will meet other guy friends, but never feel the same way about them as i do with you. U have no idea what i've been through. I've turned down 4 guys because we started talking again and i didn't want to **** things up. i didn't feel like it's right. I love everything about u. i love the way u make me feel comfortable whenever wherever we are, i love how you think u can beat me up, etc. god i could write a book. n/m this is prolly pretty **** close. But anyway when i she you talking to othergirls the way u used to talk to me it actualy hurts, like WTF? i duno, i just get so upset and i shouldn't i duno i guess its just the fact that i haven't gotten over you. It's prolly cause i dont want to. i want to be with you. and i will ****en fight any chick who stands in my way.. haha. jk. i just wana no how you feel...I 'm sick of not knowing, i feel like i'm living in another world. I just had to talk to you about it, i wrote you 3 page letter than never sent it b/c i was scard. but i dont care n/e more i told u like it is. AMEN. lol.
love ash
That is what my exgf wrote to me. I'm trying to figure out how to let her down lightly. This sucks.