It was 3 actually, until i quit the car shop.
It's going alright. Never enough money, always a struggle... the whole reason i moved here was to see my girlfriend... i wish i could do more of that. HD will transfer me to VA though.. so i'm grateful.
I miss making 20 an hour doing something that was very easy to me. I feel like i'm now stuck in a rat race. Retail is pointless bullshit. Suppose i am the best, it just means i sold the most shit to people who could've most likely done with less. I'm a small enough piece of the puzzle that i will go un-noticed... which honestly is fine. I dont mean to be cocky, but i am far too intelligent and driven to be doing this shit work. I want to be helping a company grow, and learning. I know i will rarely get that opportunity with this company. I am simply there for the security. In the mean time i'm trying to build my own bridge. Its a shitty feeling man. I'm still uncertain who's fault this is. Mine for trusting an employer and not paving my own road, or his for obvious reasons. The truth is that it falls on both shoulders. I should've been more proactive in securing my own future. It's so tempting to just sit and relax with the weight on someone else's shoulders though. Not to mention it is damaging to develop complexes that prevent you from relying on others. At this stage in the game it is anyway...
BRB need to ********** to myself. So smart, so sexy. deserve amazing job. fap fap fap.