WTF Hollis. Didn't you just break up with her? IMO, put a hold on that for a couple years.
IDK your full history there, but it would seem to me that if things got bad enough to end it, starting it back up with an engagement might be a bit of a stretch there big guy.
Please think this out LONG and HARD.
No, I'm not talking about your ween. (Also not saying you haven't thought about it, but perhaps you should sit on it and think some more.) ((Once again, not talking about your ween.))
julie and i have been together for about 4 years now. the past few years have been kind of on again off again, more on than off, and pretty much all of my fault when we were off. i had been pretty uncertain about the whole relationship, and tried to leave it several times. but no matter how many times i left, or how many times i tried going to other people, i always came back to her on my own accord. and after alot of thinking, and alot of reconsidering what i had been doing, i am certain in the relationship now. i know what i want and i know where i want to be. im not uncertain about it and not scared of the relationship anymore.
ive given it alot of thought, and its what i want. unfortunatly though, things have taken a bit of a turn for the weird as of late... and its lead me to a pretty bad place in my life right now. its lead to alot of drinking, alot of HARD drinking. and very often... its a completely weird situation that i hate being in, nothing is certain in my life anymore at this point, and ive been pretty much bouncing along the bottom of the barrel for some time. im keeping hope though, the possibility is still out there, and there is still some hope as far as i can see, its just not a good situation //content.invisioncic.com/y282845/emoticons/frown.gif.a3531fa0534503350665a1e957861287.gif.
if things do work out for me though, this is going to be something that happens a few months down the road, not going to jump into it. i had wanted to, thinking it was a good idea. but after a bit of sobering up, realized maybe it was fast. i dont know, i hope i have more certainty soon... i have come to the realization though that i will be happy for her no matter which way she decides. as long as she is happy with her decision... although i have threatened to shiv her in the face if she makes the wrong decision...