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<blockquote data-quote="LoudCrownVic" data-source="post: 3215181" data-attributes="member: 551225">I recently went through some pretty serious depression. By nature I am a very negative person.When you are truly and dangrously suicidal and depressed, there are very few outward signs at least in my case. I could be sitting watching a movie and be totally tripping balls and wanting to bleed and to die. I could be at work and hallucinating about my own death, seeing blood and and guts and even sometimes smelling rotting or burning flesh (hallucinatory). People would assue I was merely grumpy. It&#039;s a very scary, whole body feeling of illness, where you only feel comfortable seeing blood and hiding from people. During these times seeing happy people that ignored me just killed me.I don&#039;t believe in drugs, the way that I beat it (so far) is to, number one, keep busy. Do things. Go out with people. Call up old friends, get back together. Take showers every day, throw out old shabby clothes, get new ones. Clean up the house and keep it clean. Drink only with friends and only as much as you need to feel good, not enough to get drunk. Eat good food with good friends. Do spontaneous things, like leaving in the middle of the night to go watch the stars in the park or just to get some ice cream. Do good things for yourself and do good things for other people.Most of all try to not be alone. That is the hardest part but te most rewarding.</blockquote>

[QUOTE="LoudCrownVic, post: 3215181, member: 551225"] I recently went through some pretty serious depression. By nature I am a very negative person. When you are truly and dangrously suicidal and depressed, there are very few outward signs at least in my case. I could be sitting watching a movie and be totally tripping balls and wanting to bleed and to die. I could be at work and hallucinating about my own death, seeing blood and and guts and even sometimes smelling rotting or burning flesh (hallucinatory). People would assue I was merely grumpy. It's a very scary, whole body feeling of illness, where you only feel comfortable seeing blood and hiding from people. During these times seeing happy people that ignored me just killed me. I don't believe in drugs, the way that I beat it (so far) is to, number one, keep busy. Do things. Go out with people. Call up old friends, get back together. Take showers every day, throw out old shabby clothes, get new ones. Clean up the house and keep it clean. Drink only with friends and only as much as you need to feel good, not enough to get drunk. Eat good food with good friends. Do spontaneous things, like leaving in the middle of the night to go watch the stars in the park or just to get some ice cream. Do good things for yourself and do good things for other people. Most of all try to not be alone. That is the hardest part but te most rewarding. [/QUOTE]

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