so my nightmares are worse then I thought, I still dont' know if my g/f is cheating but we finally talked last night. Was totally 180 from what I thought she was gonna talk about but she basically said things are just falling apart. We dont' have anything in common, don't have things we both can enjoy, and that moving in was a bad idea. AND OF COURSE, Money always ends up being brought up in any serious relationship. She said she doesn't want to do this all on her own and that I don't make enough money.
I was just in pure awe. Asked her if she still cared and she said she did and that she loved me. Then asked her if she is willing to put the effort into making it worth and she said, "I don't know." so I'm pretty much out of ideas.
I gave her a big long speech about how we shouldn't just throw this away and give up. How we can work it out and we can make changes to get things back the way they were. She was crying probably 80% of the time. She took her ring off that she normally wears today and had a shit ton of perfume on. It's not looking good at all and I'm not sure if I can handle this right now. My emotions have been so torn these past couple of weeks that if she doesn't AT LEAST give me a chance I'm going to lose it.
I just don't see how women can throw something away so easily when things aren't going their way. I even told her, "they call it for better or worse for a reason babe, just because we are having a rough time right now doesn't mean it'll continue like this." Personally I think she's talking to someone else like she did with me and her old boyfriend. Girls who feel like a relationship that isn't working always find someone who will pick up the emotional needs and Im' sure she's done that.
OH I forgot to add more about the money part. She said that I rely to much on my parents and that I don't do enough on my own. almost forgot about that one.
