Be proud of wasting your time questioning things that have been proved centuries ago, and creating your own theories that are wildly inaccurate, yet you believe fully.You know what, you are right. I am sure it is baffling to you. I am sure it is baffling to want to know more. Baffling to ask questions instead of just following along. Baffling to want to improve something. Baffling to think outside of the box. We mock what we don't understand... or in your case, that baffles you.
Deride if you must. You do you brother.
Think outside the box.
Claim that written law is bullshit. Claim you know more than a dictionary. Claim averages are a lie. Claim sexual orientation is a choice.
Proudly paint yourself the fool.
What a strange calling.